Sometimes I’ve felt that my weaknesses disqualify me from being useful to God. Sometimes wished that God would just snap his fingers and make every issue disappear. Sometimes I’ve questioned Him, wondered why He allows the struggles, begged and pleaded for him to fix me. Wished I was stronger, bolder, braver.

Recently I was reminded of a Scripture I love where Paul the Apostle (tough guy, amazing writer, hero of the faith) was complaining to God about something he calls his ‘thorn’. We don’t know what his thorn was, but it was obviously bugging him. It was something that seemed to make life harder for him, and in his mind he would be much better off if God would just fix the problem.

However, God has other ideas. He says to Paul:

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”
—2 Corinthians 12:9, NIV

Or, as another version puts it: “My power shows up best in weak people!”¹

I love this. It’s been the theme of my life. God doesn’t choose me or use me because I am talented, qualified, clever or trouble-free. He uses me because He knows I am weak, I have issues, struggles, I walk with a limp.

Then, when I manage to do or say something that helps others or makes a difference in the world, people say, “Huh? She did that? That scared-y cat? The shy girl who used to get picked on at school? The girl who panics in crowds and is on anti-depressants? Heck, if shecan do that, maybe I can!”

I love the words from this song:

She carries a pearl in perfect condition
What once was hurt
What once was friction
What left a mark
No longer stings
Because grace makes beauty
Out of ugly things²

Oysters transform their irritations into precious pearls. No irritation, no pearl. In life, we resist the things about us that are less than perfect; we wish we were braver, stronger, cleverer, prettier, skinnier . . . but we are like the oyster.

If we let Him, God can turn the things that are our hurts, our struggles and our disappointments into the very thing about us that is our gift to the world.

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Former graphic artist, youth pastor and ice-cream scooper, Simone Graham likes to paint when the inspiration leads her. A stay-at-home mum with three larger-than-life kids, and the blog, Great Fun 4 Kids, to prove it, Simone loves to share her experiences through writing and art. Her deep thankfulness to God and tendency to enjoy life's journey in spite of the rockiness it can sometimes take, quickly shows in her writing, making for open honesty and heartfelt expression. Read more of Simone's Delve articles here.